i love you.
i love you too (:
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(via dirtylittlestylewhore)
Dear Mum,
Why do you want me to stay home all the time?
Why do you shout at me when I’m at home?
Why do you tell me I’m never going to have a boyfriend because I’m ugly?
Why do you complain that I have no boyfriend?
Why must I hide so many things from you?
Just asking…
Im having an epiphany. I care WAY too much about how others label me. By how I dress, what I listen to, what my hair looks like, etc. I’ve been through so many phases in the past one and a half year. Indie, Scene, Hip-Hop, K-Pop, Techno and I think I even started listening to country to fit in with the preps of my school and I absolutely despise country music. I just want to be myself, not who my friends want me to be or look like. I’m Nadja, I’m thirteen, I love to write and I love new york fashion, I’m insecure, I absolutely hate my curly hair and I’m forcing myself to adjust, I weigh 123 and I think I should slim down a bit, I love love love hello kitty, I get jealous way too much, sometimes i wish my dad wasn’t Haitian so my features could be some what ravishing, I love Bob Marly and hate the preps at my school who have his face on their binders and don’t even know three songs by him, I’m scared to get old, sex makes me nervous, i care too much when people judge me by listening to old bands like the beatles or the sex pistols, i can’t find a balance, I copy people way too much and I’m afraid i’ll loose my individuality, i attract ugly guys and I’ve only had one good looking boyfriend, my best friend is gay and he sometimes makes me feel like shit, my mom is prettier than me, i wish my uncle didn’t die so soon in his life (21) because he was the only one who actually understood me and we could be jackasses and no one would have anything bad to say, I wish I didn’t live with my mom but on my own, I get pushed around easily, i curse alot and one day i’m going to unravel my words out on my mom, my dad doesn’t live with me and it pains me to know that he’s living in a one roomed apartment with five people while i’m living in a three roomed two bath condo in florida, i wish i was beautiful, my toes look like baby nuggets :3, out of all my phases fashion has always been the thing i don’t want to change.
you probably didn’t read this, but if you did, it’s nice to know someone’s out there.